e p4t

I think iapos;ve finally figured it out.

not only did my heart get absolutely stomped and obliterated, my dreams did too.

letapos;s face it here. I have debt. School and credit card. The gods only know how much money iapos;ll be worth in the new economy, assuming i manage to get hired. Without a partner not only can i not have a family... I can never own a home, have the car i want (i really do want my next car to be a hybrid of some sort), or live the life iapos;ve wanted and had a taste of for the last year. I will continue to struggle for many years due to all this debt, which makes any other actual adult-life type purchases further out of my grasp.

losing so much in such a small period of time, itapos;s no wonder i just donapos;t care about anything anymore (except boo). Itapos;s no wonder my motivation is gone. Itapos;s no wonder i see no point in doing things for myself because itapos;s just all pointless anyways.
e p4t, e pa sharon tobey william, e pa tide, e pa.us patch state.